Forward to the past....

It's now 2:39 am, I've arrived from visiting Steve, Danen and hes boyfriend, Ben for drinks and chat in Mandurah. It's a clearly unacceptable hour to be awake whilst at home...for no reason. I cant sleep...im in one of my (rare) moods where I actually stop and think about things... its not a bad thing- kinda constructive actually. I wake up the next morning feeling somewhat enlightened, and on the other hand depressed, but mainly enlightened.



I think of everything in my past, from my most faded memories of my mum and childhood, to last summer, high school, exs, previous jobs and so on... I'm enlightened because of where I have come to be now, yet dissapointed at lost oppurtinities and mistakes. I guess the constructive parts of these thoughts is realising that there remains good oppurtinity ahead. I think if I had one wish, logically, the best wish would obviously be to go back in time knowing what we know now and change things, or not do/do something different. Obviously that would be most people's wish anyway. Shame we cant...



I really dont make sense. Please note that I've been up since 4:30am as I had to drive from Daniel's place to my house, get ready for work, drive to the train station and catch the train into town for work by 7:30, so I could get out of work early and so things before the shops closed, and I've done that more then once this week...so 22 hours without sleep isnt too bad, and taking into account I look like this right now (go webcam capture- finally figured it out!).......



Please use the vomit bags to your left.
Although...I have been going to the gym..and the first results are starting to show in the form of bigger arms (slightly)...or maybe its my imagination, nonetheless my ego has recieved a slight boost.

As you can see abovetime for bed now, got a busy day planned tommorow also,

- Washing my Fagna,
- Gym
- Coffee with Brian
- Quiz night to raise funds for cancer
- Court/ Connectons with Daniel and maybe Brian

At some point sleep will come into the equation between now and then, maybe 5 hours. Yay.

Promise my next blog will be shorter and more interesting :-)